One For The Road

“Was he my hero,” I ask myself, this man who’d walked another path than mine; climbed mountains I would never see but whose eyes lit up with understanding when I talked. You do not have to be young to be lost, and living on the edges of approval was a fate we  both shared. I was twenty four and he “just over eighty” as he’d said for several years.

He was difficult by all accounts, and refusing to be wrapped in his obituary: we shared a horror of the commonplace as seen from Chaos Road. His morals were doubtful, career had been patchy, but he was exuberant in person and a celebrator of the smallest event.

He was there by force of circumstances and I, because I lacked direction, but our bond was to “Grab the moment and let the morrow damn you if it can. “

“Drink and smoke forever, and dance till your legs betray you, and never let the buggers see you beg for a reprieve.” Such was his advice to me, barely comprehensible, but his defiance of the fates was born on every breath. His eyes were full of mischief and his hands were never disciplined but he still knew the urgency of wanting “a good night out.” His mind was free to travel, his memories were infinite and in our wish to be “free of it,” we shared a common bond.

“Take me away with you. Let me see the moors once more, sit in a bar and share a smoke with friends” he pleaded, and so one night I stole him from his old peoples home, sneaking out during a shift change, and climbed into my wreck of a car, “Nearly as old as me” he said, smiling at the thought.

For one night only, we sat and smoked and drank where no one would know us, as if we’d discovered home. I was not and never have been, “Romantically gifted” but he told me, “If you find a woman who’ll love you, discover her every day. Eighteen or eighty, or somewhere in between, will not matter in the slightest. Their eyes will be the pool in which you swim and their happiness the point of every day,” and as he said it, I felt him shut down for a moment.

His Annie was seventy-two when she died, he told me, and chided him each and every day for all that she celebrated him, and in the central well of values he loved her without question, and missed her presence always. “She’s a corker ain’t she” he said holding up her photograph, taken on their fiftieth wedding anniversary outside some city pub, and she was smiling up at him and her look was saying, “What will I do with you?” but she’d made an odd man happy which is a hard thing to do.

I got sacked the next day and barred from seeing him because common sense will stand no reckless acts but I will raise a glass to him forever: the bravest man I knew.


About Peter Wells aka Countingducks

Trying to remember what my future is
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11 Responses to One For The Road

  1. beth says:

    i absolutely love every word of this –

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Beautifully written, and possibly worth losing one’s job for!

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Scarlet says:

    Dance till your legs betray you! Indeed.


  4. Michael Graeme says:

    Terrific story. Really felt the impact.


  5. Al says:

    “Grab the moment and let the morrow damn you if it can.” Words to live by, for sure.


  6. araneus1 says:

    Many, many years ago, I had an encounter with a man of similar age. I was slightly older than your protagonist, but not by much. For me, it was only a long conversation, but it had all the flavour of your excellent story.
    “a celebrator of the smallest events”, is someone I’m training to be.
    Thank you for taking me inside your imagination.


  7. Jack Eason says:

    Reblogged this on Have We Had Help? and commented:
    One from Peter…


  8. Robin says:

    This is absolutely AWESOME. Great one Peter!!


  9. nelle says:

    Your explorations of human interactions and emotions are always a fascinating read.


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